To my other Beloved
As ive mentioned, today (25th!) is my bestest's aka Anthea / Thea / Tangerine / Victor-boo / Anth-anth / Ant and newly created MS CHANG BANG's birthday. And this lil bit is dedicated solely to her =)
It was back in late 2002/early 2003.
Despite knowing her for 5/6 years, ive never managed to actually celebrate her birthdays with her due to various reasons.
And im really really glad that i managed too this year.
I still remember the first few times i met her. We got to know each other online on some networking website and i was so excited to find her on the website cause she was practically like the only other Singaporean around and so i added her on MSN immediately. She didnt come online till a few days after i had added her and i remember i was so anxious to talk to her.
And when we finally did speak to each other, we clicked straight away! And from then onwards, i never failed to go online everyday, enduring longass hours and major butt-cramps XD And after about 2 years, we finally met up.
The very first time i actually saw her in person was at Causeway Point. Yes, i dragged my ass all the way to the other side of this Island just to look for her. And im really happy that i did.. cause that was the day i found my bestfriend. It was also the day she bought me a really adorable Jack Skellington puppet/plushie-thing that till today is still stored safely in its box and placed at the side of my bed. We were also freaking obsessed about Long John Silvers and would never fail to have it whenever we met. Also, i still remember that she had a stuffed toy dragon named 'Hamlet' and how we made 'Long Johns Hamlet'.
And whenever we're together, we're ALWAYS hyper and excited for some unknown reason. We never fail to make each other laugh be it by making fun of other people or telling stupid jokes or just looking at each other. And we would also NEVER run out of things to say! Even when we were bored we'd scream 'IM SO BOOOOREEED!!!' at each other and other random things.
But sadly after awhile, we kinda drifted apart.. school kept us both busy and the distance between us DID NOT help at all.
But still, she never failed to be here. If she couldnt be there for me in person, she was always just a call or MSN window away. Shes helped me through so much. She knows most prolly ALL of my secrets. She knows all about my situation with my family and friends and ive never hid anything from her, ever. And shes also one of the very few close friends of mine that have seen me through one of my 'darkest' time of life.
A few years ago, i wasnt how i am today. Far from it, infact. It was a really bad time and i ended up depressed and kept hurting myself and even got suicidal. All the bad things happened, one after another and so quickly that i wasnt even able to take a breather. All of a sudden, my world came crashing down on me and there i was, trapped in a deep pit, smouldered by all the horrible things that were happening and couldnt even reach out a hand to ask for help.
But she reached out her hands for me. She stuck her hands in and slowly helped and guided me out. Never once did she give up on me. I know that there were times where she got tired of helping me or got angry because i didnt listen to her advice and she even once said that shes given up on me, but the truth is, she never did.
And frankly, i dont think that i would have managed to pull through if not for her. Her constant nagging (in a good way), talks, motivation, encouragement, cheerups, listening, advices, opinions, thoughts and on and on.
Which is why, even at the point where we rarely met and would only occasionally have random conversations with "exploding rainbows and unicorns" online, i would still constantly think of her. Infact there were times where i would get upset and cry cause i missed her. There were also times where i cried cause i thought she didnt cared or cause of her actions/words. Ok, i think im starting to sound sick psycho stalker-esque but i assure you im not. This is just how much i really treasure and care for her and how afraid i really am of losing her because she has been amazing.
And sure there were bad times and fuck ups, even recently also, but i guess when it comes down to it, friends who treasure each other wont let dumb things jeapardise their relationships. At least TRUE friends wont.
So yeah..
Anth, im sure your parents were very happy to celebrate your birthday with/for you this morning cause 17 years ago, they were blessed with a wonderful daughter.
For me, its cause i was blessed with a shoulder to cry on, someone i could rant to anytime, a confidant, someone who never fails to cheer me up and one of the bestest friend anyone could ask for.
Thank you.
For 6 years worth of pixelated love and actual love.. all the care and concern.. all the comforting hugs and smiles youve smile.. all the encouragement and help.. For not giving up on me and your patience.. All the seriosuly wonderful, great memories and even being part of not-so-great memories.
Happy Birthday, my love!And i wish you all the best in everything. And even as your boob sags even more each year (XP), dont ever change.
Youre amazing and I love you.
♥
[2003]
[2008]PS - Lets have pictures till year 1943625829397229, please!
PPS - I hope that if in future if we ever have anything that we're unhappy with each other about, we can talk to each other about it ? If not we'd end up hating each other and ruining our relationship and i really dont wanna screw up ours =))
PPPS - Its 7am now. I wrote from 5am. I swear. Stayed up all night for you bitch XD Youd better appreciate it! Nyaha.
PPPPS - I GOT ALOT OF PS'ES!!! AHAHAHA. CHANG BANG!!!!
XoXo
[2008]