6pm - Rise and Shine [had to drag my ass up =.=] 8pm - Acid Crue [i miss them muchlys =(] 10pm - Sengkang [i miss them too =(] 12am - Home
And today... well..
6pm - Rise and Shine Rest of day evening/night - Playng Theme Hospital. [fucken awesome game, hur]
As you can probably tell, Ive been procrastinating. Putting everything on hold, not thinking bout matters that i should give thought too. Not cause im lazy, seriously. But rather cause im afraid i guess... i dont like change. I dont like change at all. Infact, i absolutely ABHOR it. But of course, time is still mercilessly prevailing as i fall further and further behind.
Im annoying. Most people move on, adapt to change well and even if theyre unsure of the next step, they're brave enough to just take a leap. Afterall, you never know until you try, right ? I on the other hand, choose to stay stationary. Maybe even backtrack. I hate that about me.
I need to change. Hah. What a contradiction. And people are telling me that i need to "wake up". What the hell is that really supposed to mean anyways. Really, think about it. Everyone is telling me so many things, trying to "talk sense" into me. But the truth is, no one is really helping much.
"So what should i do?" "Do what you have too"
"So what should i do?" "Do what you think is best for you"
"Should I blahblahblah" "As long as you think thats what you really want, then do it"
See all that crap in the lil box above? YES, those arent exactly help. Fuck. Cause, if i knew what i really had to do OR whats best for me OR what i really want, i wouldnt be in such a mess now would i ? Douchebags.
Okay, now im just being mean to the people i ranted too. Im sorry, lol. Im just.. still fucked up. And it doesnt help that my mood fluctuates wildly 24/7.
Sometimes, i just wish that there can be someone there to tell me whats gunna happen next or to assure me that everything is gunna be alright. Sometimes...
